Do not ever post when you are drunk. You will end up posting something that you’ll regret later on. Orz.
…that’s when you know that it’s time to say goodbye.
But I’ll always love you, still.
…When you want to know everything about someone, yet they’ve closed themselves off to you completely?
I’m trying to get over this…this rejection.
When someone doesn’t even see you as a human being anymore, but Something That Must Be Ignored…how do you feel normal again?
Pills can only help so much. Every time he texts me, he messes me up. I start to heal, and just as I’m about to start a new leaf, he has to show up…just to fuck with my head.
I hate this. I hate the fact that I still allow him to get to me. I wish I could turn it off…but I can’t.
I betray myself every time. And I hate it. It makes me want to…
I can NO LONGER ALLOW YOU TO:
- Make me feel like shit because you refuse to answer my texts
- Ignore me for months on end, and expect me to act like nothing’s wrong
- Take advantage of me just because I still have feelings for you
I’m better than that. And the fact that you STILL believe I’m lesser than you just PROVES that I need to stay the fuck away from you. You’re making me bleed, and I don’t need that type of toxic poison in my life anymore. Go find another victim to screw over. I’m done trying to please an abuser. No…just go fuck yourself. I say this to protect myself from you…because I still love you…